complicated me

today,
i'm wondering why
all the things have messed up my mind

i don't know why
so i wonder why
i unable to explain why
but i understand why

i can't control
however i learn to control
why why why
an unexplainable why

i always remind myself
what can do,
and what cannot do

pretending happy is not a good medicine
that can help for recovery from injury

it's only useful to escape from something
it's only functional to hide sadness infront of people
it's only helpful to make the people around us to feel our happiness
just a way to convince them that we are alright.

yea
i know i can
stop being a foolish girl
no more childish mind
be a mature girl

yea
i know i can
have to be sure of my pathway
100% of concentration and
100% of effort on what i should do

yea
i know i can
differentiate the people
who are super important to me
who are worth for me to spend time with
who are mean alot to me

everytime in my dream
there is always a happy ending
once i was awake
realized that it was a dream
the feeling was like just back from heaven

i have never told anyone about my sweet dreams
because someone said that the dreams won't come true
if we tell out if we share out

i know it is impossible
i just hope that
these sweet dreams can keep inside my heart
forever and ever

i'm not that talkative
but i'm learning not to be so quiet
we get used to speak childishly
and act chidishly in our Rock 'n' Roll gang

people from outside may think that we are childish
no no no!
this is our special and comfortable way
which allows us to get along with each other
we are always filled with laughter and joyful
we are always surrounded by sisterly love

grandpa got injured yesterday
because of falling down inside the room
he is now in the hospital
going to hospital later
kinda worry about him. =(((((
hope he will get well soon.

till here
i have no idea with all these nonsense
only one word can describe me today- COMPLICATED