Bye Bye, My beloved Grandma.

Many things had turned up into my life recently and i could not take it when i recalled back all the memories with her, my grandma. the November, a terrible month that i had experienced in my life. I would not forget the scene when everyone gathered in hospital with fear and anxiety, and the whole process for grandma's funeral.

13 November. That night, i vividly remembered that my dad and brothers were eating burger while we were doing our own stuffs. My dad's phone was ringing. Doo Doo Doo... After he picked up and talked for few seconds, i felt so weird and started to worry. 'There must be something bad happening!', i guessed. Well, what i felt is correct. My dad's face changed immediately and asked all of us to prepare because grandma was into comatose condition. Doctors were trying their best to bring grandma back into conscious. Few hours later after the struggle, grandma was declared death at 2.55am, 14 november 2010. How could this happen!!! we couldn't believe it when we heard the news at Poly's house! our tears burst out immediately, unstoppable.

I always love rainy days because i dislike hot weather. But now, i love rainy days even more, because i believe that God did cry for my grandma, and grandma blesses and protects us all the time. The days after grandma's death, the sky always in grey and it rains heavily on the first two days of funeral. Everyone said the God is crying for grandma. On last day of funeral, our youngest auntie said that grandma protects us by dripping small drops of water from the sky making the roads cold down as we had to walk a short distance without shoes when the coffin was carrying to cemetary.

guys, you can read my cousin sister's blog. She is Poly. She has written a more detailed version and the way she writes is awesome. click here.

To my dearest ahma,

Sorry that I did not visit you when you were hospitalized. sorry that i did not accompany you when you were sick. sorry that i did not make you smile when you felt depressed. sorry for time that i was not being patient to you. ahma, sorry for everything that i had made you feel bad and i know, it's all too late. But, there are things that i never regret. i did brought you and grandpa to clinic for once (at least i feel that i'm an useful grandchild :P). i helped you to massage when you are tired. i bought you snacks that you like to eat. i kissed you and said 'i miss you' to you and at least, i'd done all these before you're gone.

You are always our 'happy nuts' at home. Brings all the funs and loves to us. You are the one who take care of me when i was young. You raised me up and love me the most. You remembered all my favourite foods and cooked for me when i was hungry. I wish now, I could talk to you for a while more. I wish to call you "ahma" again. I miss you and i want to kiss you and hug you. I miss the days you called me "ping ah~". I try not to cry but i can't. Everytime when i see something that you love to eat, you used to do, you used to cook, you used to say, etc, my eyes will flood with tears. Now, you never got a chance to see how good I done, and you never got to see me back at number one. I really wish that you were here to celebrate together. I wish that we could spend my holiday together...

It's so hard to accept the fact that you're gone forever. As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place. I feel great and lucky that i have a cheerful and lovely grandma like you. Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye. Bye Bye, my beloved grandma. Rest in peace and don't worry about us. i will keep you inside my deep heart forever and ever. I will remember all the loves that you gave me. Enjoy your new life in another world. I will study well and share my happiness with you when i graduate.❤

With loves, your ah ping.